Under the Rain

People said “Crying is the only way your eyes speak when your mouth can’t explain how things made your heart broken”.

Sometimes people cry, not because they’re weak. It’s because they’ve been strong for too long. I hate to admit that’s true. I feel exhausted that I couldn’t stop these tears down. Pardon me, dear heart.

I still don’t get any idea of why people love rain?

I hate rain. They always be there, looking me crying. They watch my loss. They know all my sadness. They look on my foolness as if they understand but they don’t. And here they are, falling down suddenly as the soundtrack of this broken heart session of my life. 😥

I hate rain. I hate the memory behind their sound.

But I love rain, I love the way they hide my tears. None could see my tears under the rain, nor hear me crying. I love rain because they’re always be there in my loneliness.

Another broken heart came. Just like the song from Ed Sheeran “I’m thinking ’bout how people fall in love in misterious way, maybe just the touch of the hand.”

It’s damn confusing why it’s never worked. I stay away from men who liked me. On the other days, I refused man who intended to propose me with any reason I made ilogicaly. While now I love a man whom I know he loves another woman. Fool? Maybe. Karma? I don’t have any idea. The only think I know that it is actually hurt.


“Janji Allah itu pasti.” 🙂

Quoted from novel of Tere Liye – Sunset & Rosie :

Sebenarnya, apakah itu perasaan? Keinginan? Rasa memiliki? Rasa sakit, gelisah, sesak, tidak bisa tidur, kerinduan, kebencian? Bukankah dengan berlalunya waktu semuanya seperti gelas kosong yang berdebu, begitu-begitu saja, tidak istimewa. Malah lucu serta gemas saat dikenang.

Sebenarnya, apakah pengorbanan memiliki harga dan batasan? Atau priceless, tidak terbeli dengan uang, karena kita lakukan hanya untuk sesuatu yang amat spesial di waktu yang juga spesial? Atau boleh jadi gratis, kerena kita lakukan saja, dan selalu menyenangkan untuk dilakukan berkali-kali.

Sebenarnya, apakah itu arti kesempatan? Apakah itu makna keputusan? Bagaimana mungkin kita terkadang menyesal karena sebuah keputusan atas sepucuk kesempatan?

Sebenarnya, siapakan yang selalu pantas kita sayangi?


The Giant Al Quran

It’s been so long since I posted something to this blog. Path, Instagram, Facebook, etc, those kind of socmed really spoil us. With those like, share, and repath button that make me lazy to write a blog. Oow. Did I start blamming? Pardon me.. :p

Yesterday was my 27th years birthdate. Happy birthday to me! 😀


“My 27th Birthcake”

I pray for the health, calmness, and happiness in my life along this year. I wish I can always be the reason of my parent’s happiness, make them proud of me. Amen!

Today, after 27 years I stay in Palembang, finally I went to Gandus! 😀 What is special about Gandus? Since 2008, there is the great (giant) Holy Al Quran. The sculptured Al Quran was arranged in five floor modest building beside its maker house. It is near of the land where is planned to build a pesantren. Actually the project isn’t finished yet, there are only 15 juz that has been finished.


“The Ticket Counter. You only have to pay Rp 5.000/person.”

Once you enter the door, you will see the biggest Al Quran arranged upward become a five-floor of 15 juz of Al Quran.


“The Giant Al Quran”



“Pardon me. 😀 “


“Story behind the make of Al Quran Al Akbar”

Al Quran was revealed to Prophet Muhammad SAW, starting one night during the month of Ramadhan in 610 AD. He received the first revelation from the angel Jibril. Muhammad was illiterate, as mentioned in the Quran itself, “Those who follow the messenger, the Prophet who can neither read nor write, whom they will find described in the Torah and the Gospel (which are) with them…” (Quran 7:157).

Since I have to sleep before the kukuruyuk sound wake me up and remind me that I have to do the residency life, let me close this post with this capture I got from Jakarta Post. Here is my favourite part of article written by Laura Harris.


“….. They are also prone to lawsuits regarding malpractice without any protection from their faculties……”

Read more: http://www.thejakartapost.com/academia/2016/06/09/fair-access-to-residency-programs-for-a-fair-distribution-of-indonesian-doctors.html

To all doctors, keep awake even when you are dreaming. Every day every hour turn the pain into power (Superheroes, The Script :D). Good night, Universe!